Walking Through Shadows

Mac, I need to give you your gift. Come get it when you've got a free minute.

I hate exams. There was no time to do anything but study and all those words made my head hurt. Would anyone be willing to go for a run with me?

(Private to Evita)

Can we...talk?

(/private)

(Private to James)

How are you?

(/private)

If this is supposed to be some kind of punishment, I refuse to abide by it!

Why can't I shift?!


((It's Kaevan, you didn't actually expect him to announce his return normally, did you? :P Also, he missed the announcement/rumours about the virus, so he has no idea what it is.))

Would anyone be willing to pick up my homework for me this week? Apparently I'm not going to be let out of the hospital wing for a while and I'm already going crazy. 

I'm not even going to comment. This thing is making me sick.

I'm not good with religion. Is there some kind of service or ritual preformed in memorial for someone?

(Private to Evita)

If you're free...? I miss you.

(/private)

(Private to Evita)

If we can get permission from the teachers, would this weekend be a good time to visit your parents? I want to make it official.

(/private)

(Private to Elendir)

Even after yesterday, does TFU have a plan of action? 

(/private)

My uncle's been out of reach since he dropped me off here at the weekend. I guess none of us know how things stand as yet?

It's actually a relief to get back to classes.

Charlotte's gone...?

(Private to Self)

What is it about her? It's not even an especially sweet smell; so why does it always trigger a switch? It screams prey. No, that's not right - it's like tasting blood and playing with Adela at the same time. I don't understand! It makes no sense. It's almost like I want to eat her or something. But humans taste terrible...

(/private)


(Private to Therians)

What does it mean when you your animal keeps reacting to one specific person?

(Private to Charlotte)

I have detention every Saturday night for an unspecified amount of time. Punishment I can accept from those with the authority to give it to me. I thought you would appreciate knowing.

(/private)

My uncle came for the celebrations. It was good to see him, and to hear about home Scotland. It's not home. It never will be. He was concerned for the state of the Therian/Faie relations, but he knows I can take care of myself. I'd rather be here than at the manor. I think. At least things are relatively calm here.

(Private to Lendie)

If you still think the ball is a good idea...My uncle's offered the use of his home, in Scotland. It's large enough for what we were thinking of, and grand enough. He's too busy to help much, though, most of the work would fall on us. ?

(/private)

(Private to Charlotte)

How are you holding up?

(/private)

(Private to Lucifer)

Where are you?

(/private)

Am I the only one who feels cloistered? I feel like a cat in a circus, put through my paces every day for the amusement of others, in the ring or in a cage. I'm restless.

(Private to adoptees - Evita, Tarrie, Bella, London, Charlotte, Alex, Dick, Amarilis, Elias)(Lucifer is excluded 'caus he'd just laugh)

The nightmares are back. I'm going crazy in here. It's not right, leashing your animal just so you can learn things we'll never need! I'm so sick of it. Someone remind me what I'm doing here before I scream and snap. And won't the Faie just love that.

[Private to Charlotte]

He didn't do it. I know he didn't, they'll prove he's innocent, Charlotte. It'll be okay. 

{/private]

{Private to Self]

Jason didn't kill Julian. No Therian would strangle someone. They have to see that. Why didn't Jason stay? He would have been cleared. Running away was the stupid thing.

[/private]

Julian's death was not part of the cycle. It was wrong, and I hope whoever killed him suffers a hundred thousand lives of agony for taking his.

I'm still not great at keeping this thing up to date. I've just - been thinking a lot lately. Which is also why I've been kind of scarce, so my apologies to anyone that's been looking for me.

I was sorry to hear that the Prime Minister died. Even though I never kept up with Normal Stuff politics, my uncle told me that he was a good man. I just wonder what they're going to do about the pact, now.

It's just - the whole Faie/Therian thing? There's this, idea they have, in the Amazon. The people there. And I've heard about it here, too - yin and yang. It came up with Elendir. 

Faie are like the light. Order and civilisation and culture. And Therians - we're not like that. We're wilder. There's chaos at the core of us. We're the darkness. Like the shadows beneath the trees. 

It's not good and evil. It's just opposites. Order and chaos. Sword and claws. Dance and running. Isn't that why we hate each other? Because we're so different? But you can't have light without darkness, or the other way around. It's all about balance.

I just thought someone should finally say it.

[Screened to Charlotte, London, and Dick]

She said yes! We have a date at 7 o' clock on Thursday!

[/screened]

[Private to Charlotte]

I'm sorry.

[/private]

[Private to Dick]

You better have nothing to do with the reason my underwear was decorating the skeleton in the potions room, cub.

[/private]

I have a date. With the most perfect girl in the world. Aaaaaand...I've just realised how very completely unknowledgeable I am. Landon didn't date, dammit. How does everyone do this?

I don't recognise this emotion. It's like adrenalin and fear and excitement all at once.

...It might be panic. Help?

( Storylines )

[Private to Self]

She liked them!!!

[/Private]

So Landon's gone? I'm not sure whether to be pleased or disappointed. The guy kind of rubbed me up the wrong way, but he was another panther, the only other I've met. And the only other I'd have ever considered but Elendir. The sensible choice. But I couldn't give him my heart, and he knew that. I hope it's not why he left.

Pity he wasn't straight, hm Charlotte? You two would have been perfect together.

[Private to Self]

They can rest in peace now. Maybe the nightmares will finally stop.

This year, I'll make uncle proud. I'll make my parents proud. No more kitten; from now I'll be the panther they wanted me to be.

[/Private]

There's never any time for updating this thing. But I'm doing it now, right? That counts for something?

Anyone willing to help me with the essay for History? The words are running away again. And Bella! When are we sitting down again? Haven't managed to catch you for ages. I've almost forgotten which series we'd got up to. Your job to remind me!

( Kaevan Richards )